Monday, 13 December 2010

Christmas Tributes

If you have lost a loved one please lite a candle for them i just did you will find the link in the side bar s
**Idont need a angel on top of my Christmas tree i have my very own Angel looking over me***
please leave a comment if you have somone you will miss this Christmas
love to you all
Sassy Hugs xxxx

Im missing you

To hold you... too touch you... to talk for a while
To hear you laugh with you... to see your warm smile
To reminise of days gone past.... to remembe the laughs we shared
To have you there to hold me too..and show just how you cared
All of these things i cannot do for you are not with me my whole day through
But Mom your here within my heart and it seems only yesterday that we had to you miss you always your everloving daughter susan

Saturday, 13 November 2010

Remembering Alan Smith 1956 - 2010

Its been too long away from blog land and too long i feel i have deserted everyone whom i could in a small way support
and yet again the pain of loosing another loved one has hit home my wonderful brother in law Alan ages 54 diagnosed in March as terminal and through every thing he organised his own funeral the songs the prayers even chose his coffin and he did this with no fuss but with such dignity he was a lovely lad and he will and still is greatly loved and missed by his sister and brothers myself and his nephews and niece being divorced from the family i was unsure if i should go but me ex sister in law hugged me so hard all we could do was hold on so tight so in case the other would fall and even though i went through a harrowing divorce my ex hubbie held me closer than in all the years we had been married perhaps with time we all change and never realise we all can change death has a funny effect on everyone..anger..hurt..dispair..regret and just wishing with all our hearts we could turn back time but sadly we cant we just need to hold on to our memories and to embrace every new day tell our friends we love them and most of all those even closer to you at 54 was no age to suffer the way Alan did but he did it his way and for that Alan i salute you from the heart may angels be sitting at your side as i am sitting here thinking of you a special person in my life ....and if you see my Mum give her the biggest kiss from me as i miss her with all my heart....R.I.P xxxxx love you

Saturday, 16 January 2010

Total shock in tears again

Today ihad a delivery...ermm !!!!! not my birthday or anthing special..and it was fresh flowers ...then i read who they were from my eldest sister living in the Isle of we havent really got on like sisters ever ..even when we were young..and it was only when i read the letter she wanted to give to our Dad before he died my step mother thought it was a awful letter..and thrust it my wasnt a rotton was her going back to our childhood and the memories of us as a family before we lost our Dad to my stepmother..and her family and as there wasnt anything about her or her family she felt snubbed...well sorry but she never ever accepted her we had good reason..i only tried toget on because i wanted my dad back in my life....but reading her letter it was her way of saying goodbye...shes not one for sentiment and as i read it i felt my heart melt as i didnt realise she cared about any part of our lives...but she did...she never attended my dads funeral.or our Mums.for her own reasons but it became apparant she had missed those years and some of the years that had passed after she left to live on the Isle of Man so i thought id make her a family heritage albulm filled with all the info on ancestors and the like and although it was hard completing it after our Mother died i just wanted to give her some childhood memeories back...i had loads of photos ....and some of the times she never got to know about the birthdays mum had... the holidays we shared i have so many wonderful memories of my Swettest Mum,,,,,and she had little and although it was a very sad time for me i found it a hard road to go down...but for her i managed it just before christmas and sent it to her along with moms eldest siter has never shown emotion..but her call on Christmas morning well we were both in tears...she couldnt stop looking at the pages filled with all the photos and very sentimental stuff id gathered for her alot belonging to our Mum......and these stunning flowers were her way of thanking me for the treasured memories i gave her back.......people can change...and boy did i cry when i unwrapped these gorgeous wont ever read this sandra but i have never stopped loving you..........even through all the upsets your still my sister xx

Saturday, 9 January 2010

Viv's Mom

I have known Viv for a couple of years and she was one of my very first buddies on Dc she sent me the funniest emails and through knowing her i have found her a brill friend to have i was saddened to learn that she has lost her darling mum...on the 8th December i wish i'd not been wrapped up so much in my own grief not to have found out sooner so just wanted to say my thoughts and prayers and much love are with you sweetie all my love and hugs sassyxxxx